It was actually my neighbor. Yep. You think I am lying to? Naw, the guy three doors down. Yah, him. He killed the fat cat.

o___ O Why you lookin' crazy at me bub?

Anyways. I felt the need to do some necessary word vomit. Well I can tell you a secret...-Leans closer- I've been doing half of it in my bathroom already.

-The door swings open to see me crowding on a toilet doing a crossword puzzle- ...GET OUT!

...

Ladies and gentlemen, may I present to. The only and only...FOOD POISONING!

WHOO!

YAH!

Awesome...

Hoorah...

WAITAMINUTE! Why am I applauding for a stomach virus that has RUINED MY BODY?

-Cries into her Disney princess pillow-

Seriously people, I just got over a goddamn flu. Now I have to have food poisioning?

I have one thing to say:

KARMA GTFO! -Takes out her shot gun- YOU AIN'T SLEEPING HERE NOE MOAR!

School. Sickness. Parents. Why is everyone deciding to pick on me at the worse time possible!?

WHY IS IT SO HARD...

-Camera zooms up-

TO BE ME!?!?! ; o;

What was the point of this journal? I feel as if I had gone on a long rant about...nothing. Ah yes. I wanted to document this part of my life into my DA journal so I will never forget the feelings that were, well, once felt as a hormonal teenage girl. AHREM!

My experiences in my last year of High School has not been a very enjoyable one, so far. Why the pessimistic view you ask? I am not sure myself. When I am not surrounded by family or friends, I tend to think up nasty thoughts about my future. These unsettling thoughts tend to keep me up at night as I argue with myself numerous times over:

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!?

I have been pretty bummed out. Its hard to be all like, "YAY LIFE IS GREAT" when it isn't really. So I decided to write myself a letter. A letter I can reflect back on when I feel down.

Here it goes.

"Dear Dolly:

When you think life is getting hard, it isn't really. You're just making things harder for yourself then they already are. Stop acting like a goddamn woman and being obsessed with your future. What happened to that laid back druggie attitude I once loved? GURL, YOU NEED TO GET A REALITY CHECK! If I could, I wish I could come right now and go back into the past and slap your ass silly. THIS AIN'T RIGHT!


Overall, what I am saying is, not to stress yourself out so much. You've got a lot of potential going for you. You have got a lot of good things going for you and a lot of good talents that should not be gone to waste. Don't give up on yourself. You need to believe in yourself if you ever want to get through life.

From,

Dolly

P.S.: DON'T EAT THE UNCLE SIRLOIN BURGER EVER AGAIN!"